It is almost Sadie's Birthday!

Sadie is going to be 12 in 4 days! I have no idea where all that time went. I think that it has just flown by.

So our new family news is that we are homeschooling all of the children next year. There are so many things with these public schools here that really upset us and we have made the decision that we are no longer going to subject our children to that sort of education.

I have been praying and praying about it and I know that it is the right choice for us. I am actually excited about it, terrified but excited! I have my same old same old worries about failing the kids but I know that if we give all those fears and worries to God that everything will be alright!

We are still going to be using Abeka for all 3. Sadie will be in 6th grade, Lilly is 5th grade and Gabriel in 1st grade. I am so happy that they are excited too. They have been asking to "do homeschooling" everyday. We have been doing a little here and there. I plan to officially start in August I think. Once I get ever piece of the curriculum and 2 more rolling back packs. Oh and the spelling I am going to use is Spell to Write to Read. I have seen it, read about it, saw it in action and I am excited to be able to use it. I think that it will be wonderful for them.

I think that our lives are slowly changing into something different. We planted a HUGE garden this year, which might be a little much, because we want to can. We want to become more self sufficient, more able to take care of our own families needs, and less relying on the government for things. We want to teach our children the same because we want to fully prepare them in case of a revolt. I honestly see that in our futures and I want them to be able to survive without help, but that is another long story!

So that is a short update. Kal is returning to the back surgeon this week so I will try to update then.

Thinking I really need to be more organized!

I am so disorganized. I think that I need to be more organized. I inputted grades from last week for Sadie and she is doing well in everything but History...well I hate history so I can not blame her. She is going to try to earn $10 if she has all A's by the end of March...Kal made that deal with her. History is probably the only thing that will stop that.

I am also going to figure out this sock pattern!

New email to go with the new Phone

I am getting a new phone tomorrow so I got a new email address to go with it! I think that I am going to completely get rid of my yahoo and I am ready for that!

Christmas is over and there is LOTS of snow!

This is my can on Sunday Morning. The snow started to fall late Christmas night and this is what we woke up to. In total we got 14.2 inches in about 24 hours. The kids were stuck at their grandmas because they closed highways and the tunnel and we could not get them. Enough about that for now!
Here is our tree this year after Santa came. I think that it is beautiful. The kids really got a lot of really great things this year. Each year we have been doing less and less. This year it was about 1/2 of what we did last year. Shopping this year we realized that it was really difficult to shop for the girls. They are getting older and I can not just get them a toy because they don't play with them.

I did however get the best gift other than being with my family, Kal bought me a pair of shape ups. He got them for 60% off so I can not really complain that he "cheated" at the present buying thing. He was only supposed to spend $20 and he spent $50 on those plus I got a new brush and a thing for my crochet hooks. I kind of feel like a butt because I followed the rules and got him nothing because I didn't pick him. Oh well I always have our anniversary and there are NO rules for that.

Gabe got tons of new hot wheels stuff. He is begging to put it all together but 1st we need to get rid of the Geo tracks otherwise there is no room.

Lilly finally got her quick gems. She is really happy.

Sadie got her MP3 player and is in a state of bliss.

That is about it for today. I am going to try to be better at this blog thing. I really do think that it is a good idea and peaceful.

~Becca

It's Christmas EVE!

And what am I doing???

Cleaning, breaking up fights and trying to stay sane!

Doesn't that all sound like fun. Well it is sort of. The kids have taken to putting a rubber snake in each others beds thinking that it is so funny.

Gabe is being mean. He just won't stop hitting and being a down right bully. He thinks that he can just bully his way into getting whatever it is that he wants. Soon he will learn that is not the way but until then I am at a complete loss as what to do. Any ideas out there?

Lilly is the same old Lilly. She doesn't speak to us very often and we have NO idea what is going on in her little world. On Wednesday I was in her class helping to teach the kids how to hand sew. That was an adventure. It was nice to see that she is shy there too, it made me feel like it was not just us.

Sadie is doing much better with her schooling. Kal had a nice little chat with her about what she needed to do or she was just going to have to go back to school where she did not want to be. She wants to get caught up and be where she should be before that happens but that attitude is hard to deal with at times. I am very happy that she is doing better.

Kal is good. He has yet to get a deer this year. I hope he does soon because they are running out of meat.

I am good. I am excited to get all my sewing stuff organized over this Christmas break so that I can sew some things. I have a few presents to make and I want to do them. Some people can not cook in a messy kitchen, well I can not sew in a messy sewing space. Kal and I are going to tackle that soon. First we need to get through tomorrow.

There are lots of gifts already under the tree from our wonderful families. They are all so thoughtful this time of year and I feel like a bum because I never do cards even. Maybe I will start next year with that. Who knows...I make no promises.

The kids are staying the night at Grandmas tomorrow and I am going to use that opportunity to mop....yes I said it...mop. I figure if I do it when they are gone, I am guaranteed at least 24 hours of a clean floor!

We are really missing Julia right now too. I wish that she could be here to have Christmas with. I never in my life thought that a 17 yr old girl from Germany could touch my life the way that she did. She is such an amazing child and a wonderful part of our little family.

Well that is all I have for now. I hope that everyone has a Wonderful Christmas!

~Becca

October is almost over!

So above is the blanket that I made for our Applefest at church. It will be a door prize! It is VERY blurry but it is very cute!

Then I have a favorite picture of Lilly! She is just so BEAUTIFUL!
Then we have Sadie's Halloween Costume! Yes she will have clothes under it. She just looks so grown up to me.

Then we have Gabe's 1st stitches. He fell in the bathtub and hit his eye on a toy. He then told everyone that he "got in a fight with a bear"

And that is all I am doing tonight. I am going to make a goal of November to blog everyday...we will see if I can keep that!

~Becca

Great Day!

Today was a wonderful day. Sadie and I (for the most part) took a mental health day. We met with some other homeschooling families at Kid Zone park for lunch. We also talked about the start of the Suffolk Christian Home-schoolers group. I can not wait for that to officially start. It will be wonderful to be able to get up with other families and have Sadie get that same sort of socialization that Lilly and Gabe get at school. Jenn and I talked about the things that will want to do for the co-op that we are starting in October. It is going to be a little crazy in the beginning but I think that it is going to be wonderful. The kids are all doing work right now and I am about to start dinner. Tonight we are having Skillet Ham and Potatoes. It is a new recipe so I hope it is yummy!

School started again!

So school started last week! Things have been busy but good so far. Lilly is in the 4th grade and is as smart as ever. Gabe started Kindergarten and LOVES it. And Sadie is still home schooled working on 5th grade.

Kal and I are doing great. We went to a new Sunday School class on Sunday hoping to like it and we did. It was an absolutely wonderful experience. We learned something and I want to share it because it is quickly becoming my newest favorite bible verse.

Philippians 4:4

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all he has done.

To me this is very powerful. This is not talking about telling God that you need to win the lottery or a brand new shiny car but telling Him that you want peace of mind for a certain situation or that you would like to release something in you that is making you angry or anxious. I have never thought about that before. I always thought that I had to work through something on my own and not "bother" God with something that I felt was so small in comparison to everything else in this world. Now I know.

I am reminded about the little saying "Don't tell God how big your problems are, Tell your problems how big your God is". I really like that. I have slowly started changing my attitude to this. It is not something that is easy. It is something that overtime I hope to fully be like. And the biggest thing I can do to help this change along is to talk to God and pray.

Well that is about all I have for today. Sadie is finishing up her lessons and then we are going to have lunch and visit with a friend.

I am going to put the venison jerky into the dehydrator and hope it all works out

Until next time....

Such a slacker

A great picture of Kal and the kids from the 4th of July! This was the first year since Lilly was 1 that we have been able to see fireworks. She did amazing and was not scared. That is all I am writing today. I will try tomorrow.

It is amazing how much things can change in the matter of just a few months. The first picture was taken about 2 weeks ago when I got all of my hair cut off. Well not all of it, just about 9 inches! That was so hard for me. It was such a violent haircut too. She was so rough on my head. I thought that she was going to scratch it off when she was washing it and then she actually caught my eyebrow ring with the stupid comb. I left there with having had a horrible experience and a wet head but also with a happy feeling that it was straight...isn't that just nuts. I was happy that she was so awful with my head!

This next picture was taken in December...so less than 6 months ago. I was blonde and it was long. I loved it. Dying hair is really bad for your hair. I really like this picture though. I guess it was the lighting in the bathroom where I was. Kal likes it too. I guess that is just a plus!

This week has been wicked crazy. I have been working very hard on finishing Jenns dress and still trying to school Sadie. She has been giving me nothing but problems for the last 2 days. I am praying that tomorrow will be better. I do not think that I can take another horrible day with her.

My brother broke his leg too. I wish that I could be there to help Mara with whatever she needs. I am sure that this is going to be hard on her because my brother is a hands on dad. Those kids just really love him. I can't wait to see them this summer. I can not wait for Kal to meet Harlon and spend time with them.

So that is all I really have to say right now. I think that I am going to relax on the couch and watch a little TV and make a bracelet. Most people made friendship bracelets in high school but I had few friends so I didn't!

I will post the dress and the bracelets hopefully tomorrow!

It is only Tuesday and it has been a CRANKY week!!

So yesterday would have been wonderful if one thing had changed: If it NEVER happened! I was so cranky. It just seemed like no matter what I was just irritated. Everything bothered me. I am sure that I snapped at a few people and I should be sorry but honestly I can not say that I am. I wasn't altogether rude or anything. I think that I was just slightly tired of life for a day. I vowed to make today better...I am not sure that is going to happen on only 2 hours of sleep.

Today I am going to try to get most of Jenn's wedding dress complete. I can not wait to post pictures. I have dreamed about it and I have this vision in my head and I really hope that it matches with what I create.

That is all for now. I am going to start before I lose all motivation to complete it!

Long but fantastic day

I really didn't think that today was going to turn out that great since I have yet to be able to see out of my right eye. Something happened this morning and my eye has been stuck in an unfocused state since. It is way more annoying than it is painful. I am praying that when I go to bed tonight and I do not use my eyes while I sleep that it will just get better.

Today I hung out with my friend. I dyed her hair. Some how the dye fell on the floor and I did not notice it. When when I finally did, it was because her child stepped in it. When I cleaned it up but it stained it...it the shape of a cat with ears and everything. I am going to have her send me the picture because it is very funny!

Sadie did her schooling over there. Lilly and Gabe were late for school today and my reason is always "life". Life gets in my way and I lose track of time.

I was going to post more but this storm that we are having is pretty bad so I think I will just end now because it is better than waiting for the internet to cut out on me.

Think it is time to start this up again

It is a turtle, a frog and an octopus. I really enjoyed making these little guys. My best friend Jenn...(I should really use BFF in this case because we can be really upset with each other over something "serious" and it never lasts a day. She is defiantly a wonderful person to have in my life) has taught me how to make just about anything out of yarn. I have found that I REALLY enjoy crocheting more and more these days. Anyway Jenn has a web store that you should all check out. She is AMAZING! It is www.crochetedwithcare.webs.com

Here is my favorite picture of my wonderful family. Kal is looking extra handsome these days, I love his hair. Sadie is back to having the hair cut that I think looks fantastic on her, Lilly is such a pretty little girl, and Gabe is so grown. How can you go wrong with the purple and blue hair and a Mohawk! I am blessed to have the family that I have and I think that God knew what he was doing when he placed each one of them in my life.

I really am going to try to be better about posting. I enjoy it and I hope those of you that still are following this are interested in it, or at least somewhat enjoy reading.

Here is a short update until I have a chance to just start posting again.

Sadie is now being home schooled....long story short, she was being robbed of an education because she has some challenges because of her epilepsy. I had enough and after much talk with Kal, friends and a lot of prayer, we felt that we could get her on track and teach her better at home and she would be able to work at her own pace. She is doing wonderful.

Lilly is just as sassy as ever. She is so smart. Every time I look at her, I just wonder what wonderful things she is going to end up doing when she is older. She is such a natural learner. She still absolutely loves school and her teacher this year is just awesome! She has such patience with these children and you can just see that she is a born teacher.

Gabe is doing wonderful in school. He is sad every Saturday when he gets up and realizes that there is no school. He does however get happy again when he then realizes that Sunday means he gets to go to Church and Sunday school. He is writing a few words including his name. I got the best card from him on Mothers day that he wrote himself that said "Happy Mothers Day. I love you." That will be a keeper.

I am doing good. We are actively looking for a treadmill so that I can get in shape a little better. I am just terrified to walk down the driveway by myself...I am scared of bears! I admit it. So until the day that we get a treadmill I will just complain that I do not have one. I have been thinking about leaving to get the kids from school about 130 everyday and walking in town for 1.5 hours but I think that might be a little too much for Sadie to do with me. I am sure that I will think of something.

Well that is all that I have for tonight.

Is November 1st here yet???

I have been totally MIA these days. Applefest is almost over and then I will not be so busy. I will still have my Monday Mornings with the Ladies for our PSM. We are thinking of other things that we can do with that group too. I think that it would be awesome if we could plan a mission trip up in the mountains to pass out warm blankets. I would love that.

So I have not much to write now. My children and husband just got over the swine flu so I will have to post about that. I quit the Love Dare. Oh well. I tried and I think that I really made it about 9 days but then again after a while I was not into it. Not because I was not wanting things to get better but because of some other things that were going on at that time. I let all that get in the way and I stopped remembering why I started it.

Night all....expect a LONG POST next week!!!

Day 5

Love is not rude

He who blesses his friend with a loud voice early in the morning, it will be reckoned a curse to him---Proverbs 27:14

Today's Challenge: As your spouse to tell you three things that cause him to be uncomfortable or irritated with you. You must do so with out attacking them or justifying your behaviour. This is from their perspective only.

When I first read this, I thought to myself "Are you kidding me?" This book seriously wants me to ask how I make my husband uncomfortable or irritated?". I am so not doing that. There is nothing that he was going to say that we had not talked about before. And if he gets to tell me three things I want to tell him about 300. I thought that was fair. Then I got to thinking about this one. I am not sure if the way that I took this challenge was the intent of the authors but I took it as this is a chance for me to really hear three things from my husband without getting upset or have my feelings hurt. I think that there was a bit of safety in that for the both of us. He only came up with one thing and that is fine. I understand and I completely agree with him. I know that I make him irritated sometimes and I hope that he realizes that he does the same to me. We are not perfect people but I think that we have a great line of communication open and we are able to talk about anything together.

This was a favorite paragraph from the book:

If you're thinking that your spouse-not you-is the one who needs work in this area, you're likely suffering from a bad case of ignorance, with a secondary condition of selfishness.

I think that about sums it up.

No I have no forgotten again. It just seems like life has gotten in the way of life.....Does that make sense? Oh well if it doesn't. I have not been just sitting around doing nothing at all. Applefest at church is starting soon. We have another meeting the 1st day of school! Oh and the 1st day of school is Tuesday! I am so excited for this. I am even more excited because all 3 of my children are excited. Yes you read that right..ALL 3!! So I will leave you with these pictures from our summer trip. They are my 3 favorites. Sadie with her fishing stuff, Lilly with the flower in her hair and Gabe being Gabe! We had a lot of fun and I am still waiting to get into the swing of things. I now understand the needing of a vacation from your vacation. That is all for now.

Busy last week of summer!!

We have been so busy this last week. I am only posting this to say that I have not forgotten about the blog or the love dare....I just do not have time. I am going to sit down maybe tomorrow night and write all about everything!

Day 4

Day 4

Love is thoughtful

How precious also are Your thoughts to me... How vast is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand.---Psalm 139:17-18

Today's Dare: Contact your spouse during working hours just to see how he is doing and ask if there is anything that you can do for hi.

Simple! I do this all the time. We contact each other several times a day asking how the other one is, what we want for dinner, how the kids are, if there is anything the other one wants and little reminders.

Kal has a great job and I feel so blessed that it is a job where I can call him or email him. I can even IM him if I want (which we do sometimes). We feel blessed in general that he has a job. We have seen people lose their jobs left and right and we know that is not something that is going to happen with Kal. He works for the state. I think with the lines of communication open which he is at work makes it much simpler to be thoughtful.

If you do not learn to be thoughtful, you end up regretting missed opportunities to demonstrate love. Thoughtfulness is a silent enemy to a loving relationship.

Wow. I would have never thought about it that way before. Now that I have read that I completely agree. I think that is why people give the silent treatment when they are upset. You know that it irritates the other and it is not thoughtful. I, on the other hand, would rather just say what is bothering me when it is bothering me. I think if I were to hold it all in I would just explode. Also, I believe when you do that you work up what is bothering you into something that is much bigger.

So not much for today I guess. I didn't actually call Kal while at work today. He came home early so it was still during the working day. I asked how he was. He was tired. Then I was doing laundry and asked what I could do to help him get ready for his trip this weekend. He needed laundry done so I started the wash for him so that he could gather up his belongings and wash them.

Kal is leaving to go camping and white water rafting. Although this is not really what I want him to be doing 9 months out of surgery (and he knows how I feel) I hope that they have a great time and that everything goes well. We will miss him this weekend.

Is anyone reading....I like comments!! =)

Day 3

Day 3

Love is not selfish

Be devoted to one another in brotherly love; give preference to one another in honor.---Romans 12:10

Today's Dare: As well as not saying anything negative today, buy your spouse something that's says "I was thinking of you today."

This was a lot harder than I thought that it was going to be. I mean I am always getting Kal things that I think that he will like just because. There is really never a reason other than I was thinking about him. This dare happened to fall on a day that I was out running errands with some ladies from church. I thought to myself, "Perfect I will just get something at one of the stores when we go". Well it did not happen the way I planned. This concept should not surprise me anymore because when God is in charge nothing happens the way that you plan it or the way that you feel it should go. You would think that I would remember that. Every time we went to a new store, walking in, I thought about what I could get him. I know that he likes his magazines and I thought about getting one of those but really thinking about it I was unsure of the names and if he already had that issue. I didn't want to re buy one that he already had. So my thoughts on that were sort of out the window. Now what? The rest of my day happened.

A very good friend of mine...one of my best friends...is going through a bit of a rough time. Her ex-mother-in-law, Lana, recently found out that she has brain cancer. If that isn't hard enough, my friend had been diagnosed with brain cancer almost 11 years ago. She was granted a MIRACLE! There is NO doubt in any of our minds about that. She was getting all the information about what type of cancer Lana had. It turns out that she has an Astrocytoma. For those who I interested in that I found this info. Just the basics.

Astrocytomas are the most common glioma, and can occur in most parts of the brain (and occasionally in the spinal cord). Astrocytomas originate from cells called astrocytes and are most commonly found in the main part of the brain, the cerebrum. People can develop astrocytomas at any age, though they are more common in adults.

If that isn't hard enough to deal with my friend found out that she had what is called GMB. Which stands for: Glioblastoma multiforme. Here is a little info one that.

Glioblastoma multiforme (grade IV astrocytoma) is the most common and most malignant of the primary brain tumors. Glioblastoma multiforme usually spreads quickly to other parts of the brain. For this reason, these tumors are difficult to treat. It is not uncommon for them to recur after initial treatment.

She knew that was hard. Then she looked up the info online and talked to her mother who is a nurse and found out this info: The extremely infiltrative nature of this tumor makes complete surgical removal impossible. Even after surgery, chemo and radiation that the longest someone as lived after all that is 2.5 years.

Wow that is a lot to take in. Considering that just 10 years prior my friend was diagnosed with almost the exact same cancer. She didn't have GMB but it is still cancer.

You might be asking yourself what this has to do with the days dare...I am getting to that.

So Lana learned of her tumors on Sunday and Wednesday afternoon she had her surgery. I called my friend to let her know that I was here for her. I offered that after dinner I would be more than willing to take her back to the hospital so that she could see Lana after her surgery. My friend had surgery and she is the only person in that family who knows EXACTLY how Lana was feeling and what she was going through and how the road ahead would be. She took me up on my offer. I am happy to say that by the time we got to the hospital Lana was out of surgery, talking, alert and using all limbs. GOD IS AMAZING. He is the ultimate healer.

So where and I going with this....I knew that I was supposed to buy something for Kal but I felt that I was led to help my friend. It made me wonder if I do not care as I should for my husband. I think I do. I think that during out marriage Kal has come to realize that I am just helpful. If you ever need me, I am there. I tend to drop the things that I am doing to help. If you ask me for something I rarely say no. I have never put my own needs in front of someone else's. If there is ever a need that needs to be met...regardless of who it is...and I am able....I will fill it.

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

Philippians 2:3

At 9:30pm last night I was on my way home and stopped at the grocery store. I bought a bag of generic Doritos (thought he would like to try) and 2 liter of soda. I handed the bags to Kal when I got home just after 10pm and told him that I was thinking of him. He ate the chips and drank his drink and was very happy. Oh and I was thinking that we went to dinner and we were supposed to share fries and he ate the ALL and I didn't complain so is that not giving him something too....?

Love Dare Challenge Day 1 and 2

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 1 Corinthians 13:1-3

Day 1

Love is patient

Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.---Ephesians 4:2

The Dare for today: Resolve to say nothing negative to your spouse at all.

Wow. The book said that today was going to be simple. I think NOT. I think that this dare has so much to do with lifestyle than anything. Kal is the first one and usually the only one to get all my anger. Anytime that I am mad or upset or hurt or anything for that matter I always turn to him. I always share with him. It doesn't matter if it is good or bad he always gets it. There are times that I feel like he doesn't listen to me. Or my least favorite thing that he says is "You shouldn't take things so personal" Well hello, this is happening to MY PERSON and I will take it personal! It is a little funny to me that this was this particular dare because just the other day we were talking about how we both used to have horrid potty mouths. We have both made an effort in the last 2 years to stop. There are times that things still slip out but for the most part I think that we have done very well. He said that lately he has been cussing more and more at work and that he isn't sure why. He just gets so frustrated. Boy do I know how he feels. I get like that. When the kids are misbehaving, when the guy in traffic cuts me off or if someone doesn't use a blinker...that is why they are there. When things do not go the way I want them to go. I think that some sailors would be embarrassed by the things that would come out of my mouth. (Just a figure of speech)

When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

James 3:3-6

Think about that. Words will forever be remembered.

My reaction to this first dare is really used as more of a reminder to all of us that are doing this challenge to remember to think before you speak. If you want to say something hurtful or negative, think! Before you speak. ask "Is what I want to say true? Is it necessary? Is it kind? I wonder how much I would be talking if I made an effort every time I spoke to ask my self those questions?

Day 1 went great though. I made a big effort to not say anything negative to Kal even though sometimes I wanted to but I didn't.

Day 2

Love is kind

Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you.---Ephesians 4:32

Day 2 dare is to not only hold your tongue but do one unexpected gesture as an act of kindness.

The first thing that comes to mind with this is all the things that I do that are kind for my husband. I don't punch him when I think that he needs it, I don't scream at him even when I think that is the only I think he is going to understand what I am saying, and I don't call him names even when I think that he deserves it. I think that those are all really kind things. Then as I sit here I realize that those are not kind things. Those are things that you should be doing anyway.. So what is it that I do that is kind? I am not sure. I do know that I am going to try harder to be kind to my husband. I love him and I want to have him in my life forever. I know that I do not have a heart that is hardened, but I also know that it is not soft and squishy either.

She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. Proverbs 31:26

Reading this chapter has really opened my eyes to things that I need to change in my marriage and even in my life outside of my marriage. Be Kind...you can NOT rewind your words! (Cute huh?)

Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.

Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.

Proverbs 3:3-4

I discovered today that I truly love my husband. I can not imagine my life or our children's lives without him here. I think that I take for granted who he is and everything that he does for us. Never forgetting love, binding it around my neck and writing it in my heart with help me remember gentleness, helpfulness, willingness and initiative.

Tonight I will be giving Kal a back rub as my unexpected gesture because it is something that I haven't done in a while and I know that he would love it.